It’s been a while since I’ve posted. From author interviews to just regular blog posts, you may think I’ve fallen off the planet. I have, of sorts.
I have pushed hard to get Fort Reiley released, published and publicized. Several months later, and I am bruised and tired. Putting all of my energy into the books has been an interesting project, and I have many plans and dreams. But right now, God has put other things on my heart that are taking precedence.
I need to take a very large step back and evaluate if this is really what I need to be doing at this point in my life. My wife and I are preparing for our third trip to Haiti. I have put my relationships on the back burner for too long. I’ve made promises with the non-profit that I serve, which I haven’t completed — partly due to laziness, but partly due to my misplaced priorities. I’ve been striving to make my writing my number one priority. But in reality, that’s not where I need to be focusing my time right now.
Several weeks ago, I hit a brick wall emotionally and I had to really re-evaluate things. What is important in my life? Entertaining others? While this is very rewarding on one level, it doesn’t pay the bills, and it isn’t what I’m called to do. I have a purpose for my life. I can have hobbies and adventures, but I can’t do those at the expense of the main thing.
What is my main thing? I have two main things — both of which I’ve let slide at the expense of my writing.First, being a supportive, loving husband. And second, serving my community through multiple facets: my church, a non-profit where I volunteer, and my work, where I spend the majority of my day.
Will I ever get back to writing? I hope so! I really enjoy the process. I love hearing from you. It excites me to think of new conundrums in which to place my hero. I still sit and dream up back stories for new and interesting characters that will likely never see the light of day. But the fact is, as long as I keep things out of balance, I will never be everything I need become. I am causing my own issues.
So, for now, I’m stepping back and re-evaluating everything. I’ve put this chapter of my life on hold for now to see which other parts of my life God wants to mold and develop. If I ever get back to this chapter in my life, I will be a much better writer because I will have done life the right way.